And so it begins...

We sold the flat...

It was an amazing relief to hand over the keys to our useless, estate agent with the high-pitched voice. Ah Jonathan, with  your business suits that are slightly too tight around your middle, and your "kooky" socks that you wear to inject a little bit of your personality into your work-wear. Very glad to have less to do with you, you smooth talking jackass. We still have to deal with him because his estate agents are selling the house we're buying. Eek. More squeaky falsehoods to come from him in the future I reckon. 

The downside is that my beloved and I are now living apart, at ourfamily's homes. It's so much harder than I thought it would be. It's weird to lie beside someone every night, and then have to curl up in an empty bed. Whenever we see each other, it's strange to think that we'll soon be heading our separate ways. It's hard, but I need to keep things in perspective. It's for the greater good, in the end. 

So currently,  I am cleaning cat poop up three times a day, as my cousin has three cats and is away for two weeks. I have decided that I am useless at living alone. I thought I'd be more productive than this... so far I haven't cooked a meal, though I love cooking, preferring instead to mooch leftovers off my mum and dad. I'm like a cat rummaging for scraps, it's cute for a while, but gets less so as time goes by. All I have done is watch marathons of Four Rooms on the sky+ planner. Surely this is what all other 25 year olds spend their Saturday nights doing? The highlight of my evening was finding a pot noodle in the cupboard, which means lunch tomorrow is sorted. *sigh* I promise I'll be less of a knob as time goes by. It's gonna take some time though...xxx

The Past Six Months, a Little Rundown

A lot has happened.

I'm gonna do a quick rundown of all the ups and downs of the last 6 months. They have been busy, emotional, and have generally made my head spin. Plenty of ups and downs to keep me on my toes and laughing and crying, sometimes simultaneously. 

• December- I was looking forward to a family Christmas, the second since my beloved aunt had passed. We all had high hopes, for some normality, and a lighter feeling in the air since the last. Five days before Christmas,  my grandmother in India died, meaning my mum had to fly out pretty much the next day for the funeral. I didn't see her til mid January. Christmas,  understandably was less jovial than we had hoped. My sister and I made the Christmas dinner... never. again. Stress, stress, stress! No wonder my parents never share our enthusiam for heading out to see everyone straight after Christmas dinner! I slept for 3 hours. I was back in bed by ten pm, sleeping like a baby.

• January- nothing much happened except post indulgence regret, but it was amazing to get mum back (and have a second Christmas dinner-hoorah!) oh, and we sold our flat at last... for 3 days, and then it fell through! Indecisive bastards!

• February- marked the two year anniversary of my aunt's passing. It's weird how raw it all still feels. It's not a cliché to say I miss her every day. I do, with all of my heart.

• March- I turned 25. It felt no different from 24. I have yet to stop being a knob. Maybe that will happen at 30, it may all click into place... I frigging hope not though. Snow cancelled my birthday night out though. I stayed in and sulked.

• April- flipping crazy month. I organised a massive surprise 50s themed 50th birthday party for my dad. So. Much. Stress. Turned out to be great, and the band we hired were amazing.  I did end up baking in preparation for the party,  for 18 hours. Damn, I'm good.but, two days before the party... we sold the flat! Added hectic-ness on top of everything. so happy though!

• May- I was actually sober after a night out at the Leeds Cockpit for the first time ever! Still had a great night, and it was very cheap. Pretty much nothing else happened this month. It was really boring.

• June so far-my little cousin got married last weekend! I cried all the way through.  I'm so proud of him, can't believe he's so grown up. He's a husband! my little cousin, is an actual husband. This continues to blow my mind. He's been through so muc, and he's so strong, he's like my little brother. Also... we found a house! The down side is we can't move in til November at the earliest! My beloved and I shall be living at our respective parents' houses for 5 months! Separated for five months. I'm trying to see the positives, it could be like dating again, so all a bit unknown and fun, but I'm gonna miss him like mad! Watch this space... I'll be living with family again for the first time in 7 years... it could get tricky! Xxx